Sunday, May 3, 2009

My Wedding Ring

It's been a difficult week.

You may be wondering why I have this picture up?
This is really the only picture I could find that showed my wedding ring.

I have been reflecting on my life quite a bit lately.
This week hit pretty hard and I found myself asking all sorts of questions.
After a rather rough couple days I went to work telling myself it will all be fine.
I went to wash my hands before I clocked on and my ring immediately slipped off and without thinking about it, impulsively I happened to catch it with my other hand all while I still had soap on my hands to perfectly slide on another finger.

The drain in our employee bathroom is open without any sort of a plug. It would've been lost! I have felt so emotionally drained and the last thing I wanted to do was work. When the ring slipped it was as if something had moved my body to catch it because I didn't even see it fall. It was like my body couldn't catch up to my brain the instant I noticed the feeling of the ring off my finger...bare skin!! It happened in a split second and I felt a rush of almost a heart crushing pain followed by a pure thankfulness to my Heavenly Father watching over me and knowing what that meant to me.

There was one of my friends in the room and she looked over at me with eyes wide open in shock and a mouth gaping wide. I asked her," Did you see that?" She of course had and was stunned that I caught it. I tried to control myself and choked back the tears as I had all week, and told her I really don't know what I would've done if it fell down that drain! I am sure I would've had an emotional breakdown, it's been a hard week.

I have had a few people comment on my ring lately and how pretty it is. I am not boasting that it is from Tiffany's or anything! But it is my ring and it is special to me. I had already lost my first wedding set the day I found out that we were having our first boy (Jackson).

So with that I wanted something that I could look at all my life and still love. I had designed the set I have now and had it made by a jeweler in Portland. My ring is just an earthly thing, but it means so much more to me. I have been thinking about all the memories it holds and promises it symbolizes. It used to be just shy of perfect and all sparkly and now I look at the scratches it has and how dirty it gets and understand the meaning of those as well (wear and tear). I chose a ring that was classic, an illumination of an eternal ring of diamonds with a metal that is stronger than others. This ring is pretty much me to a "T". I am so thankful for the love that it holds and the bond it strengthens.


Light & Shadow said...

I'm so glad you saved your ring! Sarah, I think I may know a little bit about your difficult week. Just know that you are loved!

Swangerlings said...

Thank you, it means a lot!

Jessica said...

I'm sorry to hear about your difficult week. If you ever need anyone to talk to, I'm here for you.

Riley and Breanne said...

Oh so lucky!! I'm pretty sure I would break down in tears if my ring was ever lost. Sorry to hear about your tough week... hang in there, it will always get better and it could always be worse!